Mood: Hot, bothered, upset and DETERMINED.

explanation of mood:
hot is self explantory.
Look at weather, for god sake.
I can have ice-cream in an air-con-ed place and not feel cold.
which just sucks please.


Bothered is over the tattered remains of what used to be a relationship, vibrant with joy laughter and trust. IT IS NEVER FOR THE BEST.

upset is my invitation has been taken away. And the way i lost my will so easily. And the reactions.

DETERMINED is to piece back the tattered pieces of the relationship. yups. Thank you, you never-say-die guy, for spurring me on. Common aim, different reasons. can cooperate.

Today, i broke my new year resolution: to never cry for myself. cuz of my mum. Woke up with sore eyes, red and tearing away. originally showered and dressed, but my eyes refused to stop tearing. So changed back into home clothes and slept. slept for a while, then mymum came back. My redness subsided,but it still kept misting up with tears. She refused to believe me and Put some liquid into my eye that stung and forced me to go school. Kept rushing and scolding me rude words, even though my eye hurt and i was super tired cuz she forced me to tutor my brother even though i had my own homework to do. Then i broke down and cried. Left house.

Originally trained to sembawang. Intended to visit sembawang library alone, cuz all of em cnnt. then i decided to train back to yishun and go home. Once i reached home, she scolded me again, saying i lied to her and eveything. and if i wanna lie, lie smarter. ETC ETC It was like 15 mins ago. Completely ignored her. No matter what, i had never placed hopes on her. I don wan to think of the promises she made and never kept. When i was still young and like a foolish young lamb, i blindly believed her words, but found myself disappointed almost everytime. When i was older, i wised up. I kept track of promises she made. and striked out all those fulfiled. By the time i filled one notebook, she had barely fufilled one-tenth of the promises she made. Perhaps every 15 she made, she kept 1. Gradually i grew smarter. I no longer ask her for anything, nor tell her anything. I was not disappointed then. but i thought she would at least at me rest at home, but she said she ddnt want to see me. I didnt care. I treated her as she didnt exist. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD



P.s : BESTIES FOREVER NO WAY I'M GONNA GIVE UP EASILY AGAIN.

Oh YES AWAY TILL AIRCON IS REPAIRED!

Mood: Hot, bothered, upset and DETERMINED.

explanation of mood:
hot is self explantory.
Look at weather, for god sake.
I can have ice-cream in an air-con-ed place and not feel cold.
which just sucks please.


Bothered is over the tattered remains of what used to be a relationship, vibrant with joy laughter and trust. IT IS NEVER FOR THE BEST.

upset is my invitation has been taken away. And the way i lost my will so easily. And the reactions.

DETERMINED is to piece back the tattered pieces of the relationship. yups. Thank you, you never-say-die guy, for spurring me on. Common aim, different reasons. can cooperate.

Today, i broke my new year resolution: to never cry for myself. cuz of my mum. Woke up with sore eyes, red and tearing away. originally showered and dressed, but my eyes refused to stop tearing. So changed back into home clothes and slept. slept for a while, then mymum came back. My redness subsided,but it still kept misting up with tears. She refused to believe me and Put some liquid into my eye that stung and forced me to go school. Kept rushing and scolding me rude words, even though my eye hurt and i was super tired cuz she forced me to tutor my brother even though i had my own homework to do. Then i broke down and cried. Left house.

Originally trained to sembawang. Intended to visit sembawang library alone, cuz all of em cnnt. then i decided to train back to yishun and go home. Once i reached home, she scolded me again, saying i lied to her and eveything. and if i wanna lie, lie smarter. ETC ETC It was like 15 mins ago. Completely ignored her. No matter what, i had never placed hopes on her. I don wan to think of the promises she made and never kept. When i was still young and like a foolish young lamb, i blindly believed her words, but found myself disappointed almost everytime. When i was older, i wised up. I kept track of promises she made. and striked out all those fulfiled. By the time i filled one notebook, she had barely fufilled one-tenth of the promises she made. Perhaps every 15 she made, she kept 1. Gradually i grew smarter. I no longer ask her for anything, nor tell her anything. I was not disappointed then. but i thought she would at least at me rest at home, but she said she ddnt want to see me. I didnt care. I treated her as she didnt exist. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD



P.s : BESTIES FOREVER NO WAY I'M GONNA GIVE UP EASILY AGAIN.

Oh YES AWAY TILL AIRCON IS REPAIRED!