i had a lot of things to blog about,
and still have a lot.
but its dumb enough crying on thr train that i very much prefer i stay on the clear eyes side.

and anyway,
i realised i do stuffs with reasons.
reasons not motives.
Motives are like being evil crap or something,
but reasons are like the cause of each action.

but whatever it is..
i'm over guides.

i;m grateful to all those things i've learned over the years,
all those bonds we have made
all the sisters i've made.
i like knowing that i can call a friend @ any time in the day and talk.
i was passionate about guides, once.
now..
charlene just asked me to rant.
then i realised i have nothing i want to say anymore.
no one i want to say for being such an effing loser to guides or wtever shit stuff i've said.
i think... suddenly i become emotionless or something.
like i teared it out or something.

maybe it was just an hour ago,
but guides time = guides time.
study time = talk and study time.
my time = do hmwk and guides time.
free time = guides time.

now, free time = my time
my time = my time.

i totally give up.
very blank inside.
there's nothing more i want to say, nothing more i want to know, nothing more i want to do.
there's nothing i want for guides now and from guides.
its the end, probably.

Shawty is a killer
But I really wanna
And I got to have him tonight
Straight heart breaker
But it really don't matter
'cause I really want him tonight



i think i;ve become melodramatic or something.
but for these, i really feel them.
sigh.

for all those tags, thanks alot.
tag more. (:

i'm darn tired.

i had a lot of things to blog about,
and still have a lot.
but its dumb enough crying on thr train that i very much prefer i stay on the clear eyes side.

and anyway,
i realised i do stuffs with reasons.
reasons not motives.
Motives are like being evil crap or something,
but reasons are like the cause of each action.

but whatever it is..
i'm over guides.

i;m grateful to all those things i've learned over the years,
all those bonds we have made
all the sisters i've made.
i like knowing that i can call a friend @ any time in the day and talk.
i was passionate about guides, once.
now..
charlene just asked me to rant.
then i realised i have nothing i want to say anymore.
no one i want to say for being such an effing loser to guides or wtever shit stuff i've said.
i think... suddenly i become emotionless or something.
like i teared it out or something.

maybe it was just an hour ago,
but guides time = guides time.
study time = talk and study time.
my time = do hmwk and guides time.
free time = guides time.

now, free time = my time
my time = my time.

i totally give up.
very blank inside.
there's nothing more i want to say, nothing more i want to know, nothing more i want to do.
there's nothing i want for guides now and from guides.
its the end, probably.

Shawty is a killer
But I really wanna
And I got to have him tonight
Straight heart breaker
But it really don't matter
'cause I really want him tonight



i think i;ve become melodramatic or something.
but for these, i really feel them.
sigh.

for all those tags, thanks alot.
tag more. (:

i'm darn tired.