250th post.
also 2nd post in 2 hours.
excluding the two post edits i did to the previous post.


'you survive cause your faith brings you through'


you werent there when i needed you the most.
you never were.
you were too caught up in your own world.
too lost in everything about you.
Blind in a sense,
blind of the soul, of the heart.
you never were anything you thought you was.
never minded anything as long as it wasnt you,
never bothered as long as you were pleased.
flippant.
as long as you were okay, the whole world was fine as you saw it.
i wonder why.
your faith changes like a leaf in the wind.
and you wait for the person to discover bit by bit that you've changed.
no consolation, not even goodbye.
afterall, you were fine after your faith changed.
wasnt that all that matters?


yes.
i know.


but still.
'faith brings me through everything i ever wanted to get past.'

250th post.
also 2nd post in 2 hours.
excluding the two post edits i did to the previous post.


'you survive cause your faith brings you through'


you werent there when i needed you the most.
you never were.
you were too caught up in your own world.
too lost in everything about you.
Blind in a sense,
blind of the soul, of the heart.
you never were anything you thought you was.
never minded anything as long as it wasnt you,
never bothered as long as you were pleased.
flippant.
as long as you were okay, the whole world was fine as you saw it.
i wonder why.
your faith changes like a leaf in the wind.
and you wait for the person to discover bit by bit that you've changed.
no consolation, not even goodbye.
afterall, you were fine after your faith changed.
wasnt that all that matters?


yes.
i know.


but still.
'faith brings me through everything i ever wanted to get past.'